Daughter of the most High God. Learning daily what it means to be a disciple of Jesus, the lover of my soul. Wife. Mother. Trying to live life as simply and as humbly serving Him as possible.
I love spending time in the word, and the Lord. My desire is to get to know Jesus more and more!
I am a life time seeker of God, who went through, people, mysticism, the new age, and the world, on this search…only to fall into the arms of Jesus. My Lord and Savior. To Him be all the glory.
I’m here to spread his message, and His testimony.
May all who seek, find He who they have been looking for.
This blog exists for His glory. He saved me from the new age, and from myself. In his presence I have found what I have been looking for. For all who seek, His presence is grace.
My name is Violet, and I was in the new age for about 8 years.
During things time, I did card readings, astrology, learned how to channel/speak to the other side, and provided readings for mothers and their children – which included, babies on the other side; abortions, miscarriages, and stillbirths.
Aside from this, I also was into many of the popular new age things that are well known today. Things that I mentioned like card readings, astrology, and mediumship and others like meditation, crystals reiki, yoga and various forms of “healing”.
I was obsessed with the spiritual world, and was convinced that my purpose was to help mothers so that they could be the best mothers possible, and help their children grow up with “no trauma.”
While I was conducting soul readings of various sorts, I was under the impression that I was doing the work of the Lord. The truth is that I was wrong. I was not. I was doing the work of the evil one.
I was giving people messages, from the other side, which I later on I came to realize were just messages from things called familiar spirits, and demons. Giving messages that the Lord says are messages to those with “itching ears”…
3 For the time will come when they will not endure sound doctrine; but after their own lusts shall they heap to themselves teachers, having itching ears;
4 And they shall turn away their ears from the truth, and shall be turned unto fables.
2 Timothy 4: 3-4
For this I have repented and am now doing my part to speak out against the new age, and its teachings to share the truth that the Lord has shown me.
I am here to expose the agenda of evil, and speak on what was shown to me, as well as share with others about the grace that has been bestowed upon me, through repentance and the love of Jesus Christ. The simple truth is that because he loved me enough to die on the cross and take my burdens upon His spotless soul – which I am not deserving of – I will speak of HE who saves and gives new life, in the hopes that she who is ready to save her soul, and her children’s souls will listen. Because if it were not for him, I would be on a straight road to hell, for what I’ve done.
The new age, it’s beliefs and what it teaches, is NOT of the Lord, but of the evil one, and it leads us astray. All of us who dabble in it.
It is my hope that I can reach those of whose heart, the Lord Jesus has been knocking on.
It is written:
“Behold, I stand at the door and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”
Revelation 3:20
The truth is that there is another realm. There is a God, there is a Jesus (and not the Jesus of the new age that brings “love and light”) and there is also darkness, evil, demons and Satan.
Another truth is that if we are not choosing Jesus, and God – the God of the bible, not the new age – then we are choosing the other side…
I honestly believed while I was in the new age, that I was doing good, and the Lord’s work…but my fruit, meaning how my life was, was showing different.
Everything was starting to fall apart…which is what happens when we are living in sin…but the Lord, once I repented and came back home to Him, he restored.
Because His mercy, is great. A mercy that I didn’t deserve and yet He bestowed upon me.
“he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy.”
Titus 3:5
Because the new age is wicked and is a sin, and if you are in it, you are living in sin.
Today, I want you to take an honest look at your life, and ask yourself, has my life been better since I found the new age?
Do I feel peaceful?
Do I enjoy my life and the people in it?
Are my children doing well, or do they seem to be downward spiraling?
I will not pull punches.
The cost of sin is death.
“For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord.”
Romans 6:23
Our children, bear the burdens of our choices…something which the Lord has been cleansing and working through in our lives…and dabbling with the new age. Astrology, channeling, spirits, mediums, or anything else like this, has devastating consequences for us, our children, and our lives. The Lord hates it.
“Let no one be found among you who consigns a son or daughter to the fire, or who is an augur, a soothsayer, a diviner, a sorcerer, one who casts spells, or one who consults ghosts or familiar spirits, or one who inquires of the dead.”
Deuteronomy 18:10-11
If you, have done any of this, please repent and seek the Lord, while he can still be found. Seek him, and then start seeking him, about your children after you’ve repented.
And if I conducted readings and services to you, I sincerely apologize and ask you to delete those immediately.
They are truth mixed with lies, because the enemy (Satan, and his army) lie and deceive people, so that they can fall, and move away from God.
But the Lord sent Jesus to buy us back, from the evil one.
“Christ bought us with His blood and made us free from the Law. In that way, the Law could not punish us. Christ did this by carrying the load and by being punished instead of us.”
Galatians 3:13
The truth is that Jesus is coming back for those who belong to the Lord:
“Behold, I am coming soon, bringing my recompense with me, to repay each one for what he has done.”
Revelation 22:12
If you’ve been searching for a long time, for God, love, spirituality, peace, healing, or anything like that, know that all of that is found only in Jesus.
Jesus took my pain, trauma, heartache, and the longing that I’ve always had in my soul, and replaced it with peace, love, and healing. A real deep peace that goes beyond anything that the new age ever gave me.
And the times are changing and we can see with all that is happening in the world that Jesus is coming soon. Our time is becoming more limited as we go, and the Lord is seeking his people. Please don’t be stubborn. I promise you, his presence is grace, when we seek him earnestly and are ready to repent and seek him.
Please, I implore you, repent and seek him today.
The new age will only lead you to destruction and death.
This blog is here to help bring mothers who have always been seeking to do the best for their children, and those who have been seeking the Lord, the true Lord, get back to Jesus, and away from the new age, because he is the way, the truth and the life…and the only way to get to the Father, is through Jesus. The only way to find peace is through Jesus. In his presence is grace.
I will be covering more and more as the Lord leads me.
Back, when I was into mediumship and going into the spiritual realm, I co-wrote a blog with someone where I stated that things were going to be chaotic for a while, but that we would be fine. That we would have a hard time, but that those hard times would not last and that we would be OK. This. Is a lie. For believing and spreading that lie, I repent. It is a lie from the pits of hell, to keep us away from focusing on spending time getting right with the Lord.
The lie that we are going to be OK, and that everything is going to work out for our good is harming us, and leading us into further decline, and taking us away from salvation.
The longer we leave getting right with YHWH the harder it is, and further away we get from being able to come back to him. Life is getting more hectic and louder. We believe that this is a time matter. It’s not. It’s a salvation issue.
The ruler of this world is blinding us, into thinking that we have time, and that everything is going to be fine by limiting our understanding to this life, and by keeping us spinning in the mundanities of today.
Relationships. Children. Home. Errands. Cleaning. Work. Schedules, etc.…we stay stuck worrying about these things, when the reality is something completely different.
Yes, all these things are important, and we do need to be able to pay attention to them, but the most important thing that we have to prioritize is the Lord. Accepting the Lord Jesus Christ as savior, and learning how to have a relationship with Him. Spending time with him. Something – to be fully transparent – that I am still learning how to do more of.
The god of this world wants to keep us spinning, and chasing the things that are here, because he knows that if he can get us, before we are saved, and/or keep us from following the Lord, he has us where he needs us. Following him into destruction.
This is why it’s important to understand the times that we are in, and not believe in the lies of having enough time.
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A long time ago, I believed the lie that everything would be fine. I was a believer in the concept of the word pronoia (pronoia is the opposite of paranoia, the belief that the universe is conspiring in our favor and the world is friendly). A word, that when we separate it from God, can easily lead us astray. This led me to the belief that everything was going to be OK and that we are going to be fine. This is a dangerous belief, because it keeps us from really understanding the truth of what’s happening. It kept me in a state of idleness.
This led me down a few different paths. The first was the idea that everything was going to be fine at the end, which gave me a false sense of safety, leading into a state of foolish detachment and honestly, delusion. It created a false sense of security, and denial of the truth of my life, the state that I was in, and the severity of the responsibilities and tasks that I needed to attend to daily. Basically my role in life – more exactly what I was supposed to be doing.
As a result, the second, was a denial of the amount of time that I had left. I thought that I had time to do all the things that I wanted to do – or should be doing. It left me with a sense of disconnect between the amount of time that I had to do the things that were important, vs what I thought. The idea was that I had enough time. I didn’t…we don’t
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The truth is that there is a ruler of this world, whose sole focus is to keep us away from the one true living God, YHWH. The reason that he does this is because he hates us and wants us to spend eternity with him in the lake of fire. In essence the idea that we have a lot of time, is an idea that is from the pits of hell, for the purpose of keeping us away from using our time, to get closer to the Lord.
The danger with believing lies is that it keeps us from truth – we believe SO MANY lies, that we don’t even know what’s true any more…
This is why it’s important to READ OUR BIBLES! Because we can’t learn for ourselves, what the lies are, how to be saved, or how to live life righteously if we are not spending time in the word daily, praying and seeking the Lord.
EVERYTHING in and of this world, is created to keep us enslaved to systems, ideas, patterns, thoughts, beliefs, that keep us spinning and lost. The ruler of this world does this on purpose because he knows that he can’t be saved, unlike us who can still, by accepting Jesus as Lord and Savior.
The truth is that the only thing that will help us is the Lord. Time is not on our side. Days are speeding up, and our time has to be well spent in doing things that seek the Lord and glorifying him. We must learn to seek him intentionally.
We still have the opportunity to be saved and spend time with our creator.
The only thing that we have to do is repent, believe in him, accept him as Lord and Savior, the Lord will take care of the rest, if we follow him.
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My friend, I am not going to lie to you, the time is short. We don’t have time to waste. The issue here is salvation. The issue goes beyond this time and world. The time to accept Jesus as Lord and savior is NOW.
“Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me.”
Revelation 3:20
“Behold, I am coming soon, bringing my recompense with me, to repay each one for what he has done.”
Revelation 22:12
Not tomorrow, not later, not in a week…not when you’ve gotten all your wiggles out. Now. As the world gets more intense, it will be harder to learn how to find the Lord. It will be harder to listen. It will be harder to know what to do, to keep you safe in the times to come.
The bible talks about the things that are going to start happening in the world. All the destructive things, the wars, the earthquakes, and so many other too much to speak of here. We see it in the way that the world is now. We see it in the destabilization and degeneracy of society. In the way that people are behaving. The disasters that are happening…so much going on. Things are not getting better, they are getting more intense, as Jesus said.
Now is the time to get right with YHWH, to accept Jesus Christ as your savior.
The time is now to repent and to seek him. Seek the Lord while he may be found.
Don’t allow yourself to become too distracted to hear the truth. Jesus is the way the truth and the life. He died for your sins. He offers a new everlasting life.
At the end of it all, we are all going to die, and the choices that we make now, are going to dictate where we spend eternity.
If you’re in the new age, or any form of religion, this means that you’re a seeker of truth. You are seeking God, and something that is True. This something is Jesus Christ. He is what you’ve been looking for. Something that took me YEARS to finally get, and understand after so many years lost, in the new age, in deception and in the world. Jesus set me free. Free from pain, heartache, anxieties, sadness, and all the other things that I didn’t know that I was carrying…all the things that humans call “normal”.
“Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.”
Acts 4:12
Friend, as time keeps ticking and going, and the days get shorter, it’s time to start to put your focus on the things that matter in the long run. Salvation. Don’t allow yourself to keep spinning and to lose sight while you search. Jesus is the way.
“…if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.”
But women will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith, love and holiness with propriety.
1 Timothy 2:15
The Lord, in his infinite mercy, is always looking for a way to help us come back to him…the problem is that we don’t understand him and his ways, because the truth is that the majority of us simply do not read the bible.
We take what we hear and believe it, without seeking YHWH. We believe in who culture tells us God is…
The reality is that we are SO misguided by who YHWH is, and his goodness that we don’t fully understand that he is always good, and in his goodness, doing things to bring us back to him.
Today, we are going to be talking about, abortion – and as you can see from the verse above childbearing, and the things that come from it…how the Lord uses this to save women.
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When I read the passage above, it caused me to stop and think. To reflect on my own life, and how having children has saved my life, but more than anything to really realize the TRUTH of the character of the Lord.
Today’s culture tells women that pregnancy, children and childbirth are expendable.
That these things are not that important, and that there is something more important that we should be doing. There is a strong disconnect between what some women believe and the truth that the Lord says, and what he does for us.
In today’s abortion culture, women are made to believe that an abortion is not a big deal. Not so. It’s a great big deal. Not only do women sin against themselves when they have abortions, but most importantly they sin against the Lord, who as we can see from the passage above, gives some women children, to save them.
Culture. LOUD culture tells women, especially young women, that there is something wrong with being a wife and mother. That they should be doing something else more important with their time other than having and taking care of children…the Lord, as you see, has other ideas.
Culture tells women that they have so many things to do, and that they should be out there, “securing the bag”, and that their biggest goals should be the one of being baddies. That they can do anything that men can do. That they should sleep with whoever they want and reclaim their sexual freedom. That they should pursue lives where they are wild and doing all of the things …These beliefs are lies.
These are the exact beliefs that cause the women who are living these kinds of lives to feel empty and shallow. Lives where they are chasing everything that they want and yet, feel empty inside. Lives that are worthless and have no meaning and no fulfillment. Lives where they continue to look for more and more things that are self-destructive.
The Lord knows this and when he sees some of the women today, heading in directions that are destructive, he gives them pregnancies, and children to save them.
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He says in the passage above that women will be saved, in childbearing. This means in having children via birth and raising the child(ren), they will be saved. Saved from what is the next question…
The answer is, from falling into deeper darkness. Many women’s lives go into deeper chaos after abortions. They were in dark places before, but afterwards, their lives became nightmares. Lives that went into deeper acts that destroy their souls. Witchcraft. Hedonism. Perversion, and all kinds of darkness…because something has to fill the void left…
He knows that childbearing (and rearing) forces us to be about another person. He gives us the gifts of children, so that we may be saved in service to them.
We all know that children cannot take care of themselves. They are dependent on their parents to help them in every area of their lives. The Lord knows this. He knows that we parents sacrifice ourselves for our children (ideally the way that Jesus sacrificed himself on the cross. With joy).
He then says in the next part of the verse if we continue in faith, love, humility with propriety…meaning, if we raise our children with love, and being humble in the service, and behave in ways that are moral, we are to be saved.
However, in lack of knowledge of who YHWH is, we spit in his face and kill his gifts.
Let’s get this straight. Abortion is a sin. No matter how much we justify it, it is a sin. We are destroying something that the Lord took time to create, as we see in Psalm 139.
Now. This is not to condemn anyone. It’s to help us understand the truth behind the matter of abortion and childbearing.
So many of us are lost in the political argument behind this topic that we are not seeing the heart of the Lord in this. The heart of Lord that so many claim to be seeking, when they are seeking spiritual things. Abortion is not a political topic, as we’ve been deceived to think, it is spiritual beyond what any of us understand…and the enemy uses spiritual deception to trick people into this destructive act, and fostering their souls into damnation.
Years ago, I believed in the idea of reincarnation, and that aborted babies or spirit babies, would come back to their parents, until the Lord showed me the truth, that this is not the case.
And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment:
Hebrews 9:27
This verse showed me the truth. I had to repent for believing and spreading this lie, to the ones who creates – basically, the one who created the being. The one that no matter how many arguments we have back and forth, is the one who took his time, to make every single part of this person. Who in his infinite love, created a life that He was to delight in. The truth of the matter is that no matter what argument we use, the truth is that we, no matter how many times we have sex, can not create a life without the Creator…ask someone with fertility issues, if you have doubts.
None of us is exempt from sin except we repent and turn back to the Lord. He knows that we are but dust. He knows that our seasons are short and that we are here for a small amount of time, and he waits for us to come to him…
The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness; but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.
2 Peter 3:9
The problem is not his lack, but the reality that time will at some point run out for us to repent.
“Seek ye the LORD while he may be found, call ye upon him while he is near…”
Isaiah 55:6
This verse, by deduction, lets us know that at some point, although he is near, at one point he will not be.
Listen, I’m not here to point any fingers. If you’ve had an abortion, and have been affected by it, allow this to be your wake up call to repent to the Lord for the choice that you made, and allow his Love and forgiveness to heal you. This is why Jesus came. The Lord knows that this world is sinful and full of darkness. He knows that we are full of lies from the enemy that has come to destroy us. The amazing thing is that all we have to do is to repent of our sins and to come back to him. To set us free from this cycle. To atone for our sins, and to help us connect once again with YHWH and be in right standing with the Lord.
Abortions affect everyone involved. But the Lord extends his grace and mercy to those who seek him earnestly.
Allow his goodness and mercy to work in your life. What he meant for good, we allow the enemy to destroy…and yet, he still heals, he is still good. This is why Jesus came, lived a perfect life, died on a cross and was risen again on the third day. He took all of our sins, and nailed them to the cross. To be the atonement for our sins, and to give us a way back to life. He is life and light. He is the one that takes the hurt and gives us a new life and healing.
To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the Lord, that he might be glorified.
Isaiah 61:3
Repentance is the gift that we are given, after Jesus took our sins on the cross.
Seek him today.
Repent and turn back, so that your sins may be wiped out.
Acts 3:19
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
“Why herein is a marvelous thing, that ye know not from whence he is, and yet he hath opened my eyes.”
John 9:30
I grew up in a culture where saint veneration, and belief in the supernatural are common occurrences. I grew up Catholic, and the images of saints filled my subconscious because in that culture they are not seen as strange. In fact, speaking about god and other supernatural things is very common. It was also common for me to see statues, religious figures, and candles, around the homes of many people that I knew. All this to say, that belief in the supernatural and in the “other side” are everyday occurrences. Because of all of this, I always knew that there is another side…aside from having a personal encounter with God as a little girl (but this is a story for another time).
I knew beyond the shadow of a doubt that there IS a god, I just didn’t know THE GOD. I saw the supernatural things as normal. I have always believed in God, but I didn’t know him. I spent my entire childhood, and most of my adult life, searching for him, in any and every way that I could think of. Some good, some awful.
The new age, when I fount it, seemed to fill a lot of the blank spaces that I remembered about God, from the times that I had encountered him as a little girl. A lot of the teachings can often feel like what we know deep within to be true without being right…there was always something missing – what I now know is Jesus Christ.
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Before I found the new age, while still a little girl in Catholic school, I rejected Jesus Christ. I rejected him, because I could not understand how a loving God, could sacrifice his son, and let him die on a cross. It didn’t make sense to me.
How can a God, who is loving, allow his son to suffer such things? How?! I still remember this thought plaguing me. Because of this, I decided that this religious stuff was nonsense…
…adding to that, that according to Catholic religious practices, the Pope is the only one who can interpret the bible for the congregants: which meant that I did not have a bible, only a list of rules to follow according to someone who I had no ties to…
…and I decided that I would find my own path to God. Here began the search to find what when I was little, would soothe my soul when I was by myself, when it was quiet and dark. This started a 30 year search using tools, books, methods, people, etc…you name it, I probably tried it.
Enter the new age. When I found it I was convinced that I found the thing. The key to finally getting closer to the God, who was with me during some of the hardest times of my life. By the time I found this thing, I was already into divination. I was using tarot cards, I was deeply into astrology, and into mediumship and readings. I was hooked.
I believed that I could somehow believe myself (or “manifest”) into healing: myself, my children, my marriage. The deeper that I went into this, the deeper I went into all of the practices over the years that I believed would help me heal. Things like meditation, crystals, eastern religions and doing a ton of practices – and like anything that is not connected directly into YHWY and Jesus, ALL of it, left me empty after some time in it. Because of this, I was lead into other kinds of what I thought then was “deeper knowledge”.
I started to learn about other religions like, Santeria and Palo. I started to get into universe worship, speaking with people that were into things like the veneration of aliens, mermaids, and satanism other things. I was lead into different schools of magic, the study of elements, of “spiritual realities” that people can’t see. I took in EVERYTHING that I could get my hands on, and my belief system became a hodgepodge of everything that I could put my hands into and onto because I was on a search to find God. I learned from people in different kinds of what is commonly known as “schools of thought.” My search lead me into doing things like, opening my third eye, and awakening the kundalini. When I tell you that I went in. I went IN.
Slowly, I realized that all of this stuff was leaving me feeling the same. Empty. I kept climbing a ladder that had no end. And worse of all, it was starting to affect me and the people around me. I had no peace. I was always on edge. Everything always seemed to be falling apart. The very thing that I was searching for was further away than ever.
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While I was in these practices and in these beliefs, I believed that because everything came from God (because I still didn’t know him) that nothing was really bad. I believed that because everything came from him, everything was just him teaching me lessons, and that it was all from him. I believed that it was all energy, and that he used everything, as a vehicle back to him…how wrong I was.
These beliefs (which I now know, are evil ideas and thoughts), kept me spinning and going further into darkness for years. I thought that the more that I learned (opened up, became awake, or whatever else it is that people say to convince themselves that it’s all one energy and therefore it’s all OK), the better off my life would become, because I would be aware of what was going on. I thought that I would be able to understand what was happening, and therefore, be able to heal what was going on, so that I could control what was happening. But that never happened. What happened instead, was that by the end of 2020, my life started to crumble and implode.
During this time, everything that I held to be true, started to fall apart. Beliefs. Idea. People. Myself.
And during this time, the Lord in his infinite grace and mercy saved me.
He showed me the truth that what I was doing and believed was not from Him. He showed me how much he loves me, and how he has been trying to bring me back to him my entire life…but I could not see because I was blind. All of the things that I was doing, was taking me away from him, not bringing him closer.
He showed me, that what I was doing, was wicked, and he’s spent the better part of the last 3 years, showing me the destruction that these practices were causing in my life and in my family. How these practices have wreaked havoc in my and our lives…while healing me.
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One thing, as a result of all this has become extremely clear, and that is that no matter what, there is a spiritual battle out there. Many are out there, thinking that there is no difference between good and bad. Or that it all comes from one source, and that it’s all good, because it all came from God. My friend. If you are reading this, and believe this, I can tell you that that is a lie. It’s not all good. It’s not all OK because in the end it’s all from God. No. The truth is that there is good and there is evil. We are in a spiritual battle, and the reality is that if we are not choosing God, by default, we are choosing the other side…another truth is that there is no way to God, except through Jesus. Not the Jesus of the new age, or this hippie new age Jesus, of enlightenment and ascension, but the Jesus of the bible who died for our sins. The one who asks us to repent and come back to him so that we can have a right relationship with God.
The truth is that evil is out there every day, trying to convince us that it doesn’t exist, and that we have a lot of time. But we don’t.
The truth is that there is deception out there running rampant, convincing people that all is well, and that we can skate by life without God. But we can’t. We need the Lord Jesus Christ to cover us, and open our eyes from what’s going on, so that he can save us from what’s happening.
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I to share with you a dream that the Lord gave me a few months ago, which got me out of bed, praying, asking for forgiveness and repenting for my part in the mass deception by participating in the wickedness (albeit naively, but it doesn’t matter because sin is sin), that is mediumship, channeling, and divination.
I will say that I don’t remember the dream in its entirety (because I didn’t record it). The dream started with me being in an apartment building, where I was with others. I was at the top of the building, and at some point, I realized that I had to go downstairs to leave. As I started to make my way down the stairs, I started to look out of the windows of the stairwell, because I kept hearing a lot of noise and commotion at the ground floor of the apartment building. It grew louder as I made my way down and I started to feel scared. As I got to the ground floor, it was dark and cloudy – not weather wise, but in the way that it felt like there was something IN the darkness. It felt thick. Heavy. The air was alive.
The ground floor was like a basement. Stuffy and heavy, even though there were windows above and a door to the outside directly across from the stairs where I was standing. Directly next to the stairs was a young man, no more than 20…from my feeling he was about 19 years old. And this young man was wailing and howling. Deep guttural howling. Not crying but making loud deep sounds, and screaming for people to bring him his vice…which was alcohol. As I saw him, my heart sank into me, because I could feel the depths of his animalistic monstrous need for what he wanted.
I knew in my soul, that there was no coming back for him. His need for this vice, was complete, and he loved it. He didn’t know that it was destroying him, but I knew. I could sense that he was IN the hands of evil…
…the thing about being in the midst of evil, is that you get to know it. You can feel it. I felt it.
He was completely and utterly surrendered to it. He didn’t want an escape. He didn’t want to get rid of it, he wanted more. His entire soul was completely taken over by it. It’s what the bible calls “son of perdition”. He was lost, and gone, and there was no coming back. His soul was so destroyed by his lust, for this addiction that there was no coming back. He would do anything for it. I felt it. I could feel the darkness around him, pushing him for more, and him giving into all of it. And the more he howled and gave in, the deeper he got, further away from life. I also understood, that he thought that it was a good thing…
20Woe to those who call evil good and good evil, who put darkness for light and light for darkness, who put bitter for sweet and sweet for bitter.
21 Woe to those who are wise in their own eyes and clever in their own sight.
22 Woe to those who are heroes at drinking wine and champions at mixing drinks, 23 who acquit the guilty for a bribe, but deny justice to the innocent.
Isaiah 5:20 -22
…the worse part of this, was me knowing that I had somehow, played a part in this. That my time in the new age, created conditions for this kind of lust to be accepted…something for which I can’t make amends for, except what I am doing now…something that I can’t repay. Glory be to God for Jesus, because this alone, is worthy of damnation…
When I saw this, my soul was sick, and I felt the weight of it all, and I left in the agony of watching this horrific scene, knowing that he was going to go deeper and keep doing what was destroying him. I knew that he was beyond coming back. I knew that there was nothing to do. I understood that demonic forces had him bound and that he now belonged to them…I woke up to seek the Lord, and to plead to him, to forgive me and to extend his grace and mercy to me. Not because I deserve it, but because He is good…and to give me the opportunity to speak against these things.
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I share this, not to frighten people, but to show you just how darkness works. We live in a world where the spiritual is more real than what we see when we are awake. What the Lord showed me in that dream is real. There are many people out there who are slaves to evil without knowing it. They are in the throws of darkness and are being lost to vices. Vices which they believe are not a big deal.
Friend. There is a reason why the Lord tells us that narrow is the way. Evil. Satan. Wants us to think that he’s not real. But he is. And when we are not in the Lord, he is having a field day in our lives, and pulling us away from God.
Evil is real. We know this because we see the wicked things that are happening in the world. All we have to do is turn on the news. Media. TV. The evil things that people do to each other…all of these things have a driving force. We are spiritual having a human experience after all.
Things like unmartial and unnatural sex, alcohol, drugs, divination, hatred, anger, greed, and many many other things are signs of wickedness in our midst. These things are open doors to evil our lives, and most of us don’t know how to be free from these things. They believe that that these things are not a big deal or they don’t understand that evil is real, and that the choices that they make are leading them straight to perdition…
perdition, BTW means ruin, lost (physical or eternal). No return. Gone. Away from the Lord. Like Judas, who betrayed Jesus…
People don’t understand that sin doesn’t start off big, but small. It’s a small opening, that grows more and more the more that we give into it, until we are in a vast canyon, full of depravity and no return…except Jesus. The only way to be set free is to believe in the Lord Jesus Christ, repent, read the bible, and start to live holy unto the Lord.
The reason why the new age, is dangerous is because it starts as a small belief system, that seems innocent or believable. It seems just believable enough, and close enough to the Lord Christ, to be almost identical. You are enamored by promises of understanding, healing, restoration, control over your life, and purpose. You start living with these principles, and believing that these things are helping you, and going deeper, because none of the levels that you reach really satisfy the empty.
You go further in, in the hopes of continuing to feel better, but with every level, you loose something. If you’re humble enough, you become aware that there is a deepening hole. If not, you keep going in further convinced that the next level will make it better. As you move in further, if you pay attention, your life is falling apart….
None of it ever will satisfy the desires. Only Jesus Christ will.
Friend. I know that this is long, but I will say one last thing, we as mothers, have been given the first task to care for our children. The life style of the new age, will not do this. It will lead our children, straight into what I described in the dream above. Into the lust of life in all of its various forms. The only way that we can save our children, is by living for Christ.
If you crave healing and restoration, for you and your family know that it is only found in Christ. The supernatural is real, both the good and the evil, and our cover from evil and connection to God, is Jesus Christ.
“I am the way the truth and the life. No onecomes to the Father, except through me.”
John 14:6
I understand now why it is that I could not accept Jesus, when I was a little girl in Catholic school. It was because I didn’t see that I was a sinner. I didn’t understand that I needed a savior to help me, and to redeem me from my sins. But when I realized the truth, that I was indeed a sinner, and that I was indeed living a sinful life, I realized just how loving the Lord in his mercy and grace really is.
I realized that I rejected Christ because I could not understand someone so good, dying for someone like me. I did not feel worthy when I was a little girl, and as I became older that turned into pride. Pride of life, pride of myself and pride in my ability to figure things out.
Seeing what the new age, all these beliefs and practices were doing to my family and my self, I pleaded for help to the Lord, and I realized that the Lord, in his infinite mercy, did indeed send his only begotten son, to save me from the grips of my sin, and from the evil that is in the world. I realized this because there is no way that I can repay what I’d done.
I then understood the truth that the most loving thing that the Lord did, was send Jesus Christ down to save me, and you, and all of us, from the sins that so easily entrap us. Because the truth is that we, cannot, in any way, in our humanity, pay for our sins on our own.
For I say to you, that unless your righteousness exceeds the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven.
Matthew 5:20
This is why Jesus came. Because we can’t pay. So he – in full submission to the Father, YHWY – came instead, and took my and our sins, and nailed them to the cross. This is love. That while we were still sinners Christ died for us, and took our sins, to reconcile us back to God. Someone that never committed a single sin. Who is blameless in the eyes of the Lord, in exchange for my dirty self, for all of us. Something that I can’t repay.
This is why I am here.
Friend, the Lord knows that we are just flesh and are lost. He understands that we need help, salvation, and redemption. This is why Jesus came. To restore us back to God. To bridge the gap, that our sin makes. If you are still in the new age and are looking for real true healing. Restoration. Look no further than Jesus Christ. All we have to do is repent and seek Him.
He is the way, the truth, and the life. Speak to him, from your heart today, and ask him to show you the way.
Earlier this week, while I was reading my bible, and in prayer, I kept hearing the phrase, “Stay In My Word” over and over again, and I kept thinking to myself, why am I thinking this? I read my bible every morning – and sometimes in the evening as well…and then like a flash I received the knowledge that it was not a message for me, but for those of you.
The Lord wants all of us to stay in His word. To seek Him daily, and to continue to seek Him, so that we can learn how to follow Him in a way that is pleasing to Him.
Here is the scripture that was given to me:
“In the beginning, was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.”
John 1:1
The purpose of being in the word are threefold:
Read your bible.
In order to stay afloat of the hardships that happen in life, to not get sucked away and into the storms, we must stay in the word of the Lord. Here is where we learn, grow, and are prepared with the tools to not get sucked into the darkness of the world.
Stay in Jesus.
Here is where we soak in our Creator. Here is where we learn the true meaning of love. We foster and create a relationship, with the one, who whereby everything else comes. Here we are washed clean. We learn how to love correctly – and not like the world – by being in the presence of the one who loved us first. 1 John 4:19
Learn to live like Jesus
By being in His word, we learn how to live more like Him. When we learn how to live like He is. We learn how to walk in righteousness. We learn how to live in a way that is pleasing to the Lord. We live in peace. Not because the world is peaceful, but because He is, and as we grow, we become.
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I bought a bible three years ago. I bought it, because reading it was the only thing that gave me comfort, after I learned about The Truth of who Jesus is, what sin is, and how far I strayed from Him…and also because it is what gave me comfort from the strong spiritual battle, that I was in (more on this at another time). For the first time in my life, I was learning that what I thought about the world and who God is, is wrong. I learned that the world grossly misrepresents who the Lord is. We only hear a small part of who He is…
Buying a bible and dedicating myself to read it, has filled in a lot of the missing pieces and voids in my soul. I used to think that healing my soul, from a lifetime of trauma, meant filling myself with “good” things, “spiritual” things, or “knowledge” to help me heal. But reading His word has taught me that NONE of these things help…in fact, they left me void.
Chasing.
Constantly chasing different things to feel better. But the better feeling things were all lies. And the thing about lies, is that they corrupt. They distort, and they dirty.
Reading the word of the Lord, emptied me of the lies that I was carrying, and freed me from the corruption that was living inside of me.
I wish that I had the time here, to go deep into a lot of these things, but this method (blogging) can be very limited – but what I will say is that the best way to learn, grow, and prepare (more on this below) is to stay in His word.
The other thing that I learned while reading His word, is that the history that we have learned growing up, is LIES – most of us know this, but the reality is that the lies go deeper than we realize, and even those keep us spinning. Something that Jesus does not want for us. We are so engrossed in lies that we can’t get free on our own. Because where lies live, there is no life. There is death. Jesus is Truth. In Truth there is freedom. The lies are part of why we are confused, depressed, and lost.
The god of this world, 2 Corinthians 4:4, has done a great job of seeing to it that we stay preoccupied in deception and chasing our tails, because he wants as many of us to go into damnation with him as possible.
But, Jesus has come to give us life abundantly, and I am here to share Him, so He can set those who are ready free.
Today, I came here with the purpose of telling you, the reader, the importance of staying in the Lord’s word, why and how this has helped me.
This is the scripture for this today:
In the world you will have tribulation; but be of good cheer, I have overcome the world.”
John 16:33
He told me, personally, do not be afraid, stay in me. Because He is preparing His people for what is to come. And the things that are to come, will be intense (this is putting it lightly).
We know and can see that the world is in upheaval. There are many things happening and going on, some we know, a lot we don’t, but in Him there is rest and peace.
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Again, the reality is that I did not come here to post this, but this is what I have.
Today, and this week, in my bible reading time, I happened to be in the book of Revelations. Today while reading chapters 1-5, and here is what stuck out to me:
“…the hour of trial which shall come upon the whole world, to test those who dwell on the earth. Behold, I am coming quickly!”
Revelation 3:10-11
In this chapter of Revelation (3), Jesus is talking to the church of Philadelphia and talking to those who are faithful and what he has in store for them because of their faithfulness, but the scripture above stuck out, because He is talking about the world, and where we/it is headed. This is not a maybe, this is what is going to happen…
The Lord wants as many as possible, to repent, and come back to Him. It is His desire that those that belong to Him repent, and come back to Him. That none get lost…
“The Lord is not slack concerning his promise, as some men count slackness: but is longsuffering to us-ward, not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.”
2 Peter 3: 9-11
However, you can see by the quote above this one (Revelation 3:10-11) that the day of trial will come…His patience will not last forever.
Why should we test him? Today, I want to ask you, are you ready to receive Him?
The simple reality of the world is that we are in a battle. A deep spiritual battle that has been going on longer than any of us here, alive now, can understand. No matter what any one says, there is light and dark. Good and evil. There is God, and there is Satan. We can fool ourselves, to think that we are living the right way, but if we are not surrendered to Christ, then there is no way that we are on the God side.
The world has convinced us that there are multiple ways to reach God. But the bible is clear. There is One way:
“I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.”
John 14:6
And this does not mean, in the spiritual new age way of personal enlightenment, as some think. We, honestly, in our present forms can not, “transcend” our way out of here, or anything else. We are too full of many sins. The book, is clear that we are all sinners:
“for all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, being justified freely by His grace through the redemption that is in Christ Jesus…”
Romans 3:23-24
We have been sold, and bought the lie that we are somehow worthy of being in the space of God, through our own actions. We can’t.
Think of it this way: can you think of a person, who has wronged you severely in life? Or who hurt so terribly that you experienced trauma. Trauma so strong that it’s taken many years for you to recover? Maybe even forgive them?…if you’ve been able to.
Or have you yourself, done something so terrible, that it is hard for you yourself to forgive yourself and move past it? These things are difficult because pain is something that stays with us…
In the first case, can you imagine being around that person constantly. In the second case, it’s hard for you to forgive yourself and move on. Right?
If God is perfect, and grieves when we do things against His holy nature, How then can He want to be around us, when we do things that go against Him? Things like lying. Fornicating and sexual immorality. Abortions. Which is the killing of innocent beings, that he so lovingly created. Adulterous relationships? Murders? Sorcery (things that the new age are and lead to) All of the things that our society has now become?
He can’t.
He can’t tolerate these things. We are defiled by the wickedness of here. But the good news is that Jesus has already paid for our sins. The ONLY way that we have a chance is through the sacrifice of Jesus Christ. Who loved us enough, to come and die a horrible death, to reconcile us back to the Lord.
He, who was crucified, and died, and then rose three days later.
It is our only hope.
He IS our only hope – in this world that is going haywire – as scripture points to (because God is in control of EVERYTHING), to salvation.
No matter what, at the end of the day, we are all going to die at some point. And how we live affects where we are going. That is why Jesus came to show us, HOW to live a sacred consecrated life, IN HIM!
Today, I ask you, what are you choosing?
Friend, today I implore you, to open up your heart to Jesus. I am here, writing these things, not for myself, but for those out there who belong to Him. He is waiting. He wants those that were predestined to come to Him to not tarry and come back home.
He wants to restore you back to Him. To live in Him. So that you can become the fullness of who you were created to be, in Him.
If you have a bible, then pick it up, and start to read it. If not, you can easily still purchase one or easily find an app. to get started.
I know that sometimes it’s hard to put down what you’ve always known. But I beg you today, to think about how your life has felt over the last few years, and to be open to and allow Jesus to show you the way today.
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I remember reading cards like it was a game, as a child. I had family that went to psychics and mediums. Who went to witch parties, and talked about it like it was no big deal. In fact, there is even talk about, older, now passed away members of my family, who were full blown witches…so much so, that it is not a big deal for us. So, when I started to dabble with the new age, it was also “not a big deal.” Only. It is…
My entire life, I thought, that I was a “good person” who cared about others, and helping people. This being, because my entire childhood, was full of niceties. People pleasing, and trying to help others feel good about themselves. I was obsessed, with making sure that people felt comfortable and supported, and loved…it is how the Lord made me – which the enemy used against me. The world lies to us, saying that we are good people, but that is not what scripture says. We are deceived. I learned this whole heartly after I came out of the new age. We are so full of the lies that have been given to us, that we don’t know how to get out of them.
I also learned that the new age and all of the things of this world, as a matter of fact, go directly against everything that the Lord talks about, this is apparent when you really learn who He is, and what the bible says, about everything.
The bible, which is the word of the Lord, speaks clearly against divination, witchcraft, sorcery, consorting with familiar spirits, and mediums, and yet, in the world, it is celebrated. It is seen as normal and a part of everyday life. So much so, that when someone speaks against it, people think that the person is weird for it.
I grew up around all of these things. To the point where it became normal to me. I thought that these things were ok and were a part of everyday life too. I saw it everywhere, and honestly, I used it too for myself because I thought that it was going to give me insight into how to be a “good mom,” “good person,” “better wife,” and “help others” to do the same…which now I see is a lie from the pits of hell…because this is how the enemy gets us – he is after all the father of lies…more on this at another time…
For now, let’s see a few bible passages, to learn what the Lord says about divination, consorting with spirits, and mediums…
Ye shall not eat anything with the blood: neither shall ye use enchantment, nor observe times.
Leviticus 19:26
There shall not be found among you anyone that maketh his son or his daughter to pass through the fire, or that useth divination, or an observer of times, or an enchanter, or a witch.
Deuteronomy 18:10
And the spirit of Egypt shall fail in the midst thereof; and I will destroy the counsel thereof: and they shall seek to the idols, and to the charmers, and to them that have familiar spirits, and to the wizards.
Isaiah 19:3
And finally, this passage:
…a certain damsel possessed with a spirit of divination met us, which brought her masters much gain by soothsaying (more on this at another time): the same followed Paul and us, and cried, saying, These men are the servants of the most high God, which shew unto us the way of salvation. And this did she many days. But Paul, being grieved, turned and said to the spirit, I command thee in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her. And he came out the same hour.
Acts 16: 16-18
*Here we see the Lord showing us, that the disciples, cast out a demon of divination from this young girl. Which shows us in multiple ways how the Lord feels about divination, as well as what is behind divination. *
We see in all of these passages, that the Lord hates divination, and yet, we practice it, for the most part, because we don’t know that it is a sin – but it is.
You see, when you are lost, and don’t know how to deal with your everyday, or when you are looking for help, knowledge seems like a great thing, and you want it to help you deal…but this knowledge is wicked. Those who practice it, for the most part, just want answers and help, only they don’t know that the answers and “help” are actually mixing lies with truth and are damning them.
They are tired, of feeling lost and confused. Of being hurt over and over by the people that they have trusted, and they are seeking answers. Answers that we can find this way…
The problem is that with these answers, we also open doors to the demonic realm, and what comes through, is nothing good. And people that are just “trying to be good” get lost in the midst of wickedness.
The Lord puts it this way:
The words of the flesh are manifest, which are these; Adultery, fornication, uncleanliness, lasciviousness, Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, Envying, murders, drunkenness, revellings, of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God.
Galatians 5: 19-21
Now here, for your consideration) is what a few of these words mean:
– lasciviousness: unrestrained sexual behavior. Lustful, lewd.
– variance: contention, strife, disagreement, reflecting a lack of unity and harmony.
– emulations: copying someone else’s behavior or attributes.
– revellings: excessive and unrestrained celebration, often accompanied by revelry\, indulgence and sinful behavior.
– seditions: rebellious action against lawful authority
Divination opens the doors to many of these things and so much more, that I will cover as the Lord directs and allows. We open doors to the demonic realm which brings things like depression, guilt, shame, bitterness, anger, and rage (this is just the start). All of the things that we, when we start to dabble in the new age, are trying to run away from. Things that we are at first convinced that are helping us. That we begin to believe is for our good, but we begin to see the opposite growing in our lives, like a cancer.
His word is very clear. Yet, we don’t hear about this often because our society and culture, is overrun by those who promote these wicked things, and we who are searching for the Lord, who get lost in the midst…this is why Jesus came. To save us from this wickedness.
When I was practicing these things, I began to feel and walk in some of evils that are mentioned above. I realized that the “goodness” that I thought that I was, the enemy was using to bring more people to him…because what God gives us for good, the enemy corrupts and uses for evil.
I learned that we can not be “good” outside of Jesus Christ. He is our lamp and guide.
In fact, in Mark 10:18 Jesus states it clearly, when speaking about goodness, responding to a question by saying “Why callest thou me good? there is none good but one, that is, God.”
If Jesus, who came to earth, lived a perfect life, and died on a cross for our sins, said this, what does this mean for the rest of us?
You see, although we want to do good, be pleasing and helpful, when we are not lead by Jesus, it is hard to do that, because we are blind when we follow the world, and worse, we are in danger of damnation to hell.
In Revelation 21:8 it says:
“…the fearful, and unbelieving, and the abominable, and murderers, and whoremongers, and sorcerers, and idolaters, and all liars, shall have their part in the lake which burneth with fire and brimstone: which is the second death.”
But the Lord said, to those who repent of their sins: “Though your sins are like scarlet, they shall be as while as snow; though they are red as crimson, they shall be like wool.“, in Isaiah 1:18. He wants us to wash ourselves clean, and to stop doing evil things, and to learn to do what is right.
You see. Although these things are wicked, and lead us into paths of destruction and death, the Lord promises life to those who come to Jesus. He is the ultimate atonement for our sins.
Today, my message is simple. Repent of the new age and turn to Jesus today. Time is speeding up, and we need guidance, covering and grace, to navigate the world, and the new age, card, astrology, divination, seers, etc., will not give what you are looking for…only Jesus can do that.
The only one that can heal, and save is Jesus. The Lord is the only one with the answers. He is the one that is beyond space and time. He is the beginning the middle and the end. He knows all and sees all…and most importantly, he IS good.
He is SO good, that in his mercy, he sent Jesus to die on a cross for me (and you) so that we could be saved. The truth is that for my involvement in the new age, in it’s entirety, I deserve hell, as does anyone and everyone else that is practicing these things…and yet, the Lord knew, in His kindness and mercy that we were going to go astray, and he sent His only begotten son, to die for us. A wonderful mercy and grace that we don’t deserve, and yet he gave us. All we have to do is seek.
His Presence Is Grace 